Occupational hazards
I’ve been trying to figure out why I find work so annoying and so exhausting! The only time I remember this happening before was when I worked in Tesco… briefly. The problem is, it’s a job where I can’t be myself. I don’t know the people I work with all that well, and likewise they don’t know me all that well.
When I started working in the cinema, I was surrounded by boys. Personally I find it a lot easier to hold a conversation with men than women. As soon as I say anything along the lines of Xbox or Star Wars, you gain a rapport with a bloke. Even if they have no interest in these things whatsoever, they tend to relax and let you be yourself. When I worked in Currys, the majority of the other staff were techies, and being a geek is nothing to shout about.
In a Jewelery shop, the majority of the staff are girls, and girly girls at that (Except, I discovered, one girl who is a techie but only works part time). It may sound ridiculous, but I’m kinda worried about outing myself as a geek, and there’s really not much I feel passionate about that wouldn’t make me look like a freak if I talked about it. Without passion for anything, going about your daily business is just exhausting. Trying to be someone else constantly isn’t normal, and I really miss having a job where I can just relax and be myself! I keep thinking I must seem so boring to the people I work with.
The problem is, even if I do out myself I don’t see it making much of a difference because there’s no one I can really relate to. On the other hand, maybe I’ve completely misjudged everyone and geeking out at work might make it far more bearable!
Uncategorized | Vicki | 
09/12/2009 1:10 am
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